Wat Nourishes Me Also Destroys Me..

Krik-Krik.....

2009-07-25T00:58:00.003+08:00

Wah been lyk 1 mth plux since i update my blog..
Sory guys..hehehe..
Well my one-mthsary with hubby was great..
Hehehe bla3..
Anywaes he gave me Stitch as our a mthsary presnt..
He gave me 3 Stitch's 2 be exact..
Heres r the pixies of Stitch..
Gtg slip nw..
*Chiow*..

Changing..

2009-07-08T01:50:00.002+08:00

Sory, haf nt been updatin..
Been slipin early nowadays..
Finally!!!!..
Ok heres an update..
2daes my 1st mth-sary wit hubby..
& i'm soo hapy & i cnt wait..
He told me dat he's gna surprise me wit sumthing..hehehe
*HAPPY 1 MONTHSARY BABY*
*LUV YA 2 BITS SWITHEART*
*Kriiikk2*
K gtg wanna get my beauty slip..
nytes..
will blog abt 2daes event soon..
tata..

sLeepy-sLeepy

2009-06-30T04:15:00.003+08:00

Yest Me, Hubby,Hafiz & Shida went 2 Cineleisure 2 watch the Transformers 2, Revenge of the Fallen..
Been waiting anxiously 4 this muvee..
The show was f**kin awesome..
Tink i'm gona watch it again..Hehehe
Oni get 2 slip 2 hrs yest..
Slept at 5a.m yest woke up at 7 a.m plux..
Den went 2 Ubi 2 take up my lesson dere..
Reach'd hme arnd 10a.m..
Didnt slip at all coz i ddnt want 2 miss e muvee..
Met hubby at 7p.m den we head dwn 2 town..
After the show me & hubby went 2 Simpang 2 haf our supper dere after dat we went hme..
Reach'd hme arnd 230 a.m..
Here r yest pix..

Sprain'd Ankle..

2009-06-28T11:04:00.004+08:00

Been too lazy to blog..
Had a sprain ankle last wk..
and it still hurts..
Will update wen i'm well..
Here are some outings for the past wk..

Yest Swampy Outing..

2009-06-18T22:38:00.006+08:00

Went to mit hubby at 9.30a.m yest..
*wah soo long neva goo out early mornin*
Den we straight went to Fort Canning Lodge where he was gettin his intervw at..
Soo when we reached dere he went 4 his intervw while i sit at the table outsde the restaurant..
I perasan orng kaye siul sittin dere..hahaha
Arnd 11 after his intervw we had 2 goo 2 e Amara Hotel at Tanjong Pagar 4 his medical check-up..
We reache'd Amara arnd 12.30p.m & e nurse told us 2 cme bck arnd 1.30p.m..
Soo me & hubby go window shopping at e shopping centre dere..
We had our lunch at Subway..*Muak siul*
Den we went up at arnd 1.45p.m..
He finish'd his consultation arnd 4p.m..
Soo after dat me & hubby slack arnd until 8p.m..
At 8p.m we went 2 ikea..weee
Wanted too goo dere 4 a long tym..
We had lots of fun dere..
Den after dat Fana, Zul & Hairul join us dere..
After dat i had 2 goo hme 4 awhile 2 remove my lenses..
After dat we went to Pasir Ris Park, Swamp to explore..
I reached hme arnd 6 plux yest..
Was very tired.
Until now im stil all shagged up.
Mitin hubby in a while..
He's headin up 2 BTM tom..
Gona miss hym soo much..
Here r yest piczz...

Zzzzzz....

2009-06-18T06:21:00.001+08:00

Jux came bck hme & i'm daym f**kin tired lar..
Will update my blog later todae..
Had a fun & tiring dae 2dae..
2 shag'ed aredi..
nytes..

Mizz Ya!!

2009-06-17T04:35:00.004+08:00

Hmph jux woke up sei..
At 1245a.m lyk dat dh slip..
But woke up now susa 2 goo bck 2 slip..*daym*
Haf 2 get up later at 8a.m sei..
Accompanyin hubby 4 his job intervw & along e wae i wil goo 4 mine 2..
Todae neva mit hym sei..
Kinda miss hym though..
Well not gonna blog much 2dae..
2 lazy & 2 tired..
Well gotta slip nw..
Nytes..

WigNess...

2009-06-16T05:34:00.004+08:00

Jux came back..
Daym tired lar..
Went to ABC coffeeshop 2 eat wit hubby..
After dat we took a stroll arnd dat area sightseein all those big2 houses..
While walkin we saw a house which was renovating & there was a wet cement waitin 2 dry..
Soo i ran towards it & wrote me & hubbys name..Hehehe
After that we went 2 White Sands to mit up wit Farhana, Zul & Yan..
Oh hahaha me & Farhana went 2 the loo & we saw the dolls dere wit wigs on it..hahaha
*cheeky smile*
Soo we took a wig from 1 of e dolls & rush back 2 mit e guys..
I decided we shud goo sumwhere else coz we juz kinda "Stole" sumthin..wakaka
Soo hubby decided to slack under my v.d & we had our candid "Bapok" moments dere..
Here r e pics 4 todaes outin..
K gtg daym tired..
Gotta wake up early tom..
Mitin Eza..
Nytes..

Getting To Know Each Other..

2009-06-15T04:25:00.003+08:00

Went to mit hubby arnd 10p.m & we went off to Marina Barrage..
Came to my surprise dere was nt much ppl dere..
Soo we pick a spot & we sat dere from arnd 11p.m til 2a.m..
Wow we had a long talk alryte..
Gettin 2 know each other, exchanging stories, was soo funny..hehehe
After dat we make our move to mit Eza..
She jux came back frm K.L & i kinda miss her sei..
3 hri tkder kwn k..wakaka
Den we went up 2 here plce & sat outsde & tok'd 4 a while..
She bought me 2 stuffs..
1 is a keychain wit name on it & another 1 is a hp accessory wit my name on it 2..
*THNX BESTIE* LUV YA*
Wantin 2 get it 4 a very long tym, thnx 2 her finally i got it..
Ok gtg 2 slip nw here r e pics of me & hubby & e things dat eza bought me..
Oh & 1 more thing btw do u knw my name if u spell it backwards it saes "Aduh" & Miza's saes "Azim"..wakaka

Miss Updating My Blog...

2009-06-14T20:52:00.002+08:00

Finally after a long separation between me & my blog here i am writing on my blog..
Well this 1 week i've been reali happy..
Met sum1 new..
And after he appeared in my life it's been nothing but smiles & laughter..
Yah2 i know "Honeymoon" period ryte?..wakaka..
We been mitin each other everydae without fail..
And i'm proud 2 sae he is the one who let my fears & egos down..
Well its too early 2 sae but we'll c how long dix 1 stays ayte..hehe
Heres a pic of me & my hubby..
Mizz ya baby..

Updates..

2009-06-01T14:04:00.003+08:00

Sorry guys seems lyk i've been long gone from here..

My comp is down for the moment..

Need to re-format my bloody comp..*FUCKIN SHIT*

Daym all my old & new pics are in dere..*FUCK*

Now i'm using my bestie's laptop to update my fellow frenz..

Well today is Eza's Bdae..

*HAPPY 20TH BDAE EZA*

*LUV YA 2 BITS*

*SEMOGA PANJANG UMUR DAN MURAH REZKI*

Well here i am typing all the way bla3..

Me & Eza r goin out soon to haf her bdae spend at Changi juz the 2 of us..

Well its a camp out & some of our frens wud be joinin us dere..

Oh yeah i've brought my tent along & of coz paling important my digicam..

We will b takin photos of our outing for today..

Will update soon..

GTG..

*semangat siul aku*

Hahaha..
Here r sum pics of Eza's b'dae..

Men & Women Wit Affair Spot..

2009-05-23T00:08:00.006+08:00

Went out today wit my frenz Is & my god-sis Shida..

Is fetch me at my place & we headed to Bedok North 2 pick up Shida..

We head down to Eunos 2 take our managers wedding invitation cards..

It was at the MDIS building, our ex-company is call'd Venture Era..

Soo Is waited for us in the car while Me & Shida head 2 the basement to mit 1 of our collegue*Jamaliah*..

While we were waitin 4 Jam 1 of my guy collegue recognise me n sat with us..

We had a lil chit-chat & he noticed i look diffrnt coz of my long-hair..

Back then in 2007 when i werk'd dere i had short hair..

Soo bla bla bla Miss Jam was done wit her appointment & she paz us the wedding invitation card..

Soo we went back to the car & headed to Simpang where we had our dinner dere..

After done eating, we plan'd to watch the muvee, Night At The Museum at E-hub..

But before dat we had to make a few stop at Tamp..

Went to Tamp Central 2 check my hp & den to Tamp N2 shopping Centre to get ciggies 4 me & Eza..

After dat we had 2 rush to E-hub to check the timing for the muvee as Shida had 2 go hme early..

But sad to sae we missed the muvee by 10-15mins i think..

Soo Shida decided to goo hme..

After dropping her of me & Is went to Pasir Ris since i wanted 2 drive so much..*kemarok*..wakaka

When we reach dere it was lyk a Affair Paradise..

Dere was an old couple whch came in the same tym wit us & end up parking..*ewww i dun wanna noe wad they did*

Then came in a Yellow Honda Jazz & he answer'd a kol outsde his car..*obvious wife mayb*..

And last but nt least the 2 car couple..

Came in by their own car & end up duin in 1..*sheesh*

Hahaha i knw kepo ryte..

Soo well dats e Affair Spot..

Driving arnd & seein diz kind of secretive things & the best part is puttin e missin puzzles 2gether 2 create a story..

Hahaha aniwaes after that we went hme since Is haf to werk early tom..

*Here are sum picx of my activites today*

Surprising Day..

2009-05-21T23:39:00.005+08:00

Today im gona wryte soo much..

2 many things happen'd..

Woke up today at 1p.m..

Had to rush to Tiong Bahru for my intervw..*insyallah i get*

In the MRT at Bugis my abng sdare,abng sham boarded the train..

I was soo happy 2 see hym..

I wanted to run to hym to give hym 1 big hug but sad to sae we both r not in gd terms..

Soo both of us pretended we ddnt see each other..

I realli miss hym..

His jokes,hym disturbing me & makin me look stupid at public during my bdae..hahaha

Aniwaes when i alight at Tiong Bahru i saw diz guy who luks exactly lyk my cuzz,Bad..

Wanted to goo to hym but scared sala liao,later paisey pulak..

Aniwaes I had to reach dere by 3p.m..

1st tym in my life i was early 10 mins 2 b exact..hahaha..

Then I had to wait 45 mins ok 4 the intervw..*wahliao*

But i hope it was worth the wait..

Soo then I decided to gOo hme since sum of my frens r sleepin,sum r at skewl & another goin out..*aiyah*

I took bus num 65 hme..

Walau i tell u its was painful riding dat bus..

Everywhere was a memory of me & Fish sei..

Tears ran down my cheeks as I painfully had 2 face the memories alone..

Wanted to call hym but I decided nt to as I nid to b strong & move on..

Went home watch 1 of my fave show on Cinemax,*Desperado*..

*Antonio Banderas is Freakin Hot in dat show*..*HOT HOT*

Aniwaes my dad call'd me up ajak me goo dinner..

Soo we went to Simpang to eat at Spitz..

I had Black Pepper steak..*Medium Rare hard to cut lar*..hahaha

Oh & i saw a bunch of Faiz frenz..

It was lyk a reunion..hahaha

Saw Nabu,Fazly,Fuad,Fammi & Ann..

Ann call'd me soo i went to her and both of us were apologzng to each other..*cuz we had sum arguments in e past*

And we kept hugging each other..hahaha

*IM SOO SORY ANN, I WUD LUV 2 EXPLAIN 2 U WAD REALLI HAPPEN,I MIZZ TOKIN 2 U*

*LUV U MY BESTIE*

And then i had 2 leave soo i went over 2 Ann's table n salam her..

Then the rest of the guyz were lyk *ey Huda G lar*..wakaka

*Lame giler sei to nick name G*..hahaha

Aniwaes it stands for Gothic..wakaka*long story liao*..

Then went back hme..

At 1030p.m had to goo out & get my ciggies..

After dat I had a short rest at the R.c..

While Eza was accompanyin me otf,came to my surprise a familiar num call'd me..

OMG!!! it was my old flame Shahrul..AHHHHHHHH!!!

He saw sum1 who luks lyk me at Arab St..

Well i kinda get dat alot..*WHOS MY EVEIL TWIN NI, I OSO WANNA C LAR..*

And came to my another surprise he is freakin single!!!!!...

OMG!!! ITS A COINCIDENCE SIAH!!!

Aniwaes i'm missing my 2 yr old nephew*Rian*

*heres a pic of Rian*

*LUV U NEPHEY*

Aniwaes im gna stop my post for now..

Goin out aredi..

TO BE CONTINUED..LATERRR..HEHEHE

HangOveR SuxX..

2009-05-21T00:52:00.004+08:00

Yest nyte had a few to drink..

Woah came home daym drunk sey..

And i end up vomitting in the kitchen at 6a.m siah..hahaha

Woah freshen up myslf then quickly clean up the vomit b4 my parents wake up..

Happens to b on the same nyte my boifren as me for a break up..

Sumtyms you jux wish you cud rewind back 2 e past & undo everything..

I wud luv to neva met him at all..

From Frens to Lovers to Enemies..

Thats e wae majority guys wud turn previous relationshps wit their ex-girlfrens into..

*ENEMIES*

Wat a childish behaviour yah..

Hmph well as alwaes after ur relationship is gone you haf 2 start anew..

Well ryte now i dun fuckin wanna b in relationshp & i wanna enjoy life to the fullest..

In this previous relationshp of mine i learned dat noo meta how long u know or hw mch u love the person dun give ur full trust to them coz in the end u mite not knw they mite turn against u..

Soo here i am writing abt hym for the last time in my blog..

Heres the last photo we took 2gether..

*Fisyahrin & eLina*

*08.03.09*

WiLd bY NaTuRe..

2009-05-20T00:52:00.004+08:00

Today i'm declared heartbroken..wuhoo!!!!!

Duno wether i'm suppose to b happy or sad..

Well the sad part is the painful memories & no'one can make me laugh lyk he did..

Hmphh the happy part wud b i wun cry animore & i wun get hurt over & over again..

One thing is i feel very sad but i cnt cry animore for hym..

Mayb i've cried too much over hym..

We had our ups & downs, we went thru every obstacles but fate ddnt take us far enuf..

Mayb we r not meant to be..

Too majority of the girls out dere who knw him wud most probably hate hym bcuz of his waes..

But honestly speaking he can b realli nice, supportive,caring & luving if he realli luvs you..

And he is sumone i wud neva regret to ever be with..

Hmph today at 7p.m i went 2 eza's place..

Hang arnd until 8.45p.m..

Got a call from my dad asking me to join him, my mum ,my 2 nephews,my couz, my sis-in-law & my aunt..

The venue was at Simpang Bedok*Spize*..

Soo i went there by cab..

After having our dinner we went to my sis-in-laws 1st 2 send her off..

Then my mum stick arnd while me & my dad sent my aunt home..

B4 heading off my dad had 2 goo 2 the loo, soo me & my aunt & my cuzz went in the car..

When i aredi start e carr my aunt keep askin me 2 drive..

Soo i did..hehehehe..

Oh btw my dads car is a 2 litre car..

Freakin huge..

Terkial-kial aku bwk..wakaka

Luckily neva langgar the kerb..

After parkin bside the kerb, dad went down n we head off..

After sending my aunt home, we wen back 2 my sis-in-laws 2 fetch my mum..

And we went home..*boring kan cite aku nari*wakaka..

*Btw heres a pic of me, my aunt & my sis at Simpang Bedok*..

Pain,Pain Go Away..

2009-05-17T18:01:00.002+08:00

Yest i was all alone at e Resident Corner near my place..

I was dere arnd 9.30 till midnite..

While i was sitting n thinking my 1st brother called using my sis-in-laws fone..

He scolding me for me goin hme late this past few weeks..

He ask me to goo hme in 10 mins time n gve hym a kol..

But eventually i reach hme i cn't b bothered 2 gve hym a kol..

He den keep calling my phone but i jux ignored..

I am 20 this stop treating me lyk a 11 yr old!!

I thought it was aredi ok..

Today i slept thru till 5p.m..

Then while i was tokin 2 hubby on my phone i heard sum1 pushin the door & comin in..

Surprisingly its was my 1st brother..

He kicked me in the bck ,hit my head 3 tyms & took my phone away..

Best thing was my mum & dad ddnt even support me..

My dad kept quiet & my mum supported my brother..

I think hubby heard the part when i screamed in pain after i got kicked..

Then quickly i hang up e phone..

Deep down I know my brother loves me but i don't deserve this since im oredi comin to 20..

Deeply hurt & lonely..

2009-05-15T22:35:00.004+08:00

U know in 19 yrs of my life all i ever wanted was freedom from my parents..

And now when i get that i wish things wud return back to normal..

Got nagged from my 2nd brother..

He told me that my parents cud'nt care abt me anymore..

It kinda hurts hearing dat..

Yest my hubby said to his fren' I know 3 yrs in a relationshp is smthing u can't forget'..

'for me my 2 yrs i wish i cud chnge things again bcuz i was a jerk last time & i regretted everything'..

'Now u haf the chance u shud try 2 werk things out, i know i wud if i were u'..

These was the werds he said 2 his fren which really hurt me deeply..

I feel reali lonely & i wish that i cud rewind things back..

I'm not proud of my past & that is sumthing i wish i cud change..

I neva had a decent relationshp coz of dat & i duno until wen..

I realli love him but deep down i know he still loves his ex & i cud neva chnge dat..

And all of doze of u out there thinking im a gerl who can't commit well u r wrong..

My past is haunting me & my freedom is realli killing me..

I hope those of u who know me wud understnd this post of mine..

Oh this is a pic of me & his frens at karaoke 2 days back..

HardNess is BacK..

2009-05-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

Yest I went by his aunt's at Simei..

He met an accident on the 8th early morning..

And worse is, it was our 2nd month anni..

I was abt to slip arnd 6a.m & i got an anonymous call sayin dat he met wit a bad accident..

Actuali we were in bad terms but eventually i took a long, deep breath & call'd hym..

At 1st he didnt want to talk to me nor admit dat he met wit an accident..

But eventually i won hym back by asking hym wether he wans his favourite from KFC*cheesefries*..hahaha

Den went by his aunt's n visit hym..

He's got big,deep wounds all over his body & his collar-bone is fractured..

He went to CGH hospital & the F'kin doctor ddnt even warded him..

I mean common sense ah its a fractured collar-bone dumbass..

And my baby has to wait till the 18th regardin e collarbone fracture..

F'kin how long is dat sia..

10 daes sia..

Stupid hospital..

When i saw him i wanted to cry but i haf 2 restrain myslf coz it wasn't at e ryte plce 2 cry..

While he was eating his KFC his parents come over,along wit his sis,brother-in-law & his nephew *adam*..

Adam is soo cute ..hehe

His my favourite..

Then had sum talks wit the family..

Very paiseh but i manage 2 cope myslf..hahaha

Then his fren Hakim & gf Kecik came over 2 visit hym..

Den after the bike talks between Hakim & hubby, e couple went off 2 Eastpoint & decide 2 mit me & hubby dere..*btw me & kecik lyk tunggol sia*..hahaha

Soo we went up & he took a short, painful shower b4 goin 2 Eastpoint..

Hahahaha btw heard hym screamin in pain while showering..*hahaha cute*

Den his parents dropped us off at Eastpoint..

We went to buy dressings for his wounds..

After dat we went to Burger King to mit up wit Hakim & Kecik..

And then we met up the rest of hubby's frens to go get his bike..

Hubby had 2 pillon Mok-Chang & Me Wit Shafiq San..

When we reach our destination dere it was, his bike all damage on the outer look..

His rightsde of his head ferring,tank,tail,seats,pipe & his brake lever all damage..

And the rest of his bike was ok..

He decided to ride his bike hme but i think it was a bad idea bcuz of his clollarbone & he was stil in pain..

As u know he is hard-headed soo I cnt stop hym..

Otw back 2 Simei,Shafiq was all the wae bhind hubby but the rest was gone..

Aniwaes dere was one silver Toyota wish whch cut to hubby's lane & me bhind Shafiq was cursing all e wae..

I was sayin 'fuckin car if he langgar my boifren im gna kill hym'..*hahaha kecoh*

Best thing was Shafiq kept quiet..hahaha*mangkuk kejap aku*

Then we reach sime & slack at the playgrnd near babys house..

After dat Me, baby, Hakimi & kecik decided to goo karaoke..

Shafiq went hme..

Since baby cnt ride the 4 of us took cab to Grandlink..

We had a gd time..

My fave part was singin scenarios & backstreet boys songs..hahaha

Happenin giler sei..

Love the'toleh kanan,toleh kiri song'..hahaha

The 4 of us did e same actions 2gether,hahaha soo funny..

Then me & hubby went for a smoke & i saw his face was pale..

And i knew he was in pain & he told me b4 we came here he was aredi in pain..

He said he wanted to came here bcuz of our anni..*I LUV U BABY*

If i knew earlier on he was in pain i wudnt haf come..

He told me this was for our 2 mth anni..

Dats e problm of him he alwaes tend 2 keep things frm me..

And noo meta wad he wud alwaes sacrifice anithing 4 me..

*u've done enuf baby now its my turn 2 prove to u how much i love u*

We went bck in & we ended our dae wit a backstreet boys song "I WANT IT DAT WAY"..

hahahaha e 4 of us made it a real finale by screamin singing..hahaha..

After dat we took a cab back to simei..

While kecik & hakim took his bike at simei & went off by dere..

I sent hubby 2 his lift & i walk'd hme frm dere..

Reach hme arnd 3.15a.m

It was a tiring day..

*Wishing Hubby dat Hope he will recover soon & i wil alwaes b by ur side baby*

*I Love u Baby wit aLL my HearT*

*Happy 2 Mnths*

*8.3.09*

Oh herex a picture of hym & his nephew..

*they look adorable 2gether*

Excited vs Selfish

2009-05-03T05:29:00.001+08:00

Hehehe this is my 1st posting n here goes..

Today i had an argument wit my hubby.

It dragged since yest nyte when we were suppose to go karaoke but it didnt happen coz of his O.C.

He got fuck'd by his O.C & I tot it wasnt serious soo i kept pestering him wit my msgs askin hym over & over again whether we are still karaoke'ing.

He got piss'd & he told me i was selfish.

I didn't mean it to be selfish i was just soo excited.

*I'M SORRY HUNNY*

I reali wanted to go riding with hym but didn't happen too coz he was stil mad at me.

Well i neva get 2 ride wit him & his frenz before.

*SAD*

I hope 1 day i get to..

*I MISS HIM BADLY*

Picture of me & him 2 daes back..